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Part 1: The Birth of You
Were you a planned baby?
Don’t know. Don’t care. The fact that i am here is all that matters.

Were you the first?
Yes. I hope so

Were your parents married when you were born?
Yes.

Part 2: The Family
How would you describe your family?
Estranged. It’s weird. Everybody is off doing their own thing. When we get together, everybody looks lke they are happy when whey are not.

Are your parents still married?
Yes.

Siblings or an only child?
1 younger brother.

If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest?
Oldest

Which parent do you get along with best?
Grandmother.

What do you fight about?
The house, money, responsibilities, utilities & usage of space & resources.

Do you have step parents?
No

Part 3: The Friends
Do you have more than one best friend?
Yes

Do you share the same interests?
Not really, but some how we can find common ground on different interest.

Which friend can you tell anything to?
Quite a lot of close friends, but usually is (in no particular order) Wen, Daryl, Joshua, Gevin, Ahmad, ChungMun, Colin & Subash

Part 4: Your Personality
How high/low is your self esteem?
None whatsoever currently. Pride is high, confidence is middle because there is the possibility of hope but currently self esteem is low.

Do you get depressed about things easily?
Yes, but many things dont bother much till it kicks you in the nuts.

Are you an extrovert or an introvert?
Extrovert.

Happy?
Not yet.

Do you live life to the fullest?
I try to.

Part 5: Appearance
Are you comfortable with the way you look?
I lost too much weight doing things i didnt like trying to please everybody. No, im way too skinny.

Do you have any piercings besides your ears?
No, im afraid of needles.

Describe your hair?
What hair?

How do you dress?
As comfortable & light as possible. With the amount of sweat glands i have, its amazing i havent died of fungal infection yet

Part 6: The Past
Were you a strange child?
Yea, definitely

What did you use to love that you no longer do?
24 years sleeping on my baby pillow with 24 years worth of drool & dribble.

Do you have the same friends?
No, I have lost contact with my childhood friends.

Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing?
Yes.

Were you ever disowned by a family member?
Not yet.

Part 7: The Future
What is your ambition?
To be happy & contented with life, enjoy what i do & make the world a better place at the same time.

Are you scared of growing old?
No, but the world is moving too fast & im afraid of growing slow.

Do you want to get married?
Yes

Part 8: The Outdoors
Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?
If its warm, indoors. If it’s cold, outdoors.

What is your favorite season?
Winter. Christmas season

Favorite weather?
Sunny, windy & fair.

Do you like walking in the rain?
If im feeling dam emo, i wouldnt mind having a run in the rain.

Part 9: Food
Are you a vegetarian?
No

What’s your favourite food?
Everything like salmon, beef, pasta, mashed potatos, mushroom soup, pepper crab, sashimi. Anything that you can use to bulk up.

What food makes you want to gag?
Durians, frog legs, duck & anything on the fear factor menu.

What is your favorite dessert?
Swensen 29scoop Earthquake

What is your favorite restaurant
If its coffeeshop food, its the fish soup stall at the coffeeshop opposite Zouk. If its a classy restaurant, its gotta be Pregos.

Are you a picky eater?
Nope…

Part 10: Relationships and Love
Are you single or taken?
Single.

Do you think love is the best feeling in the world?
Yes, it is. I cant think of any other feeling. Ok, maybe scoring a hat trick in the Champions League final.

Believe in love at first sight?
Yes. It happens… not just in the movies.

5 years ago I was….
Slogging away in California Fitness tryig to learn the ropes of being a good & professional

5 Months ago I was….
I was attached, busy improving business & training myself, working my clients & getting set for life & having it all figured out.

5 things you cannot live without when you step out of your house…
My shoes(Birkenstocks, Nike Shox, Adidas Superstar, Asics DS-Trainer)
My glasses(all that will change when i go for my lasik at the end of the year)
My keys on my US Marines keychain
My Sony Ericsson K750i
My superman clothing.(Dont want to get fined for indecent exposure)

5 things that you hate
Durians; Injections & Needles; Arrogant people, self indulgent selfish people; People who dont read & stand on the right side of the escalator especially in the MRT; Bad drivers.

5 terrible habits that you have
I blink too hard when i dont have enough sleep; I try to let people know of my opinion irregardless if its wanted or not; Rubber timing; I slouch alot when im tired; I think too much.

5 songs whose lyrics are carved into your mind
Worlds Apart by Jars Of Clay
Take The Time by DreamTheater
It’s a Beautiful Day by U2
Ocean Avenue by Yellowcard
Everybody Wants To Rule The World by Tears For Fears

5 most sinful things you would love to own one day
Chocolate fondue machine, AlfaRomeo Telestar 147 totally mod up & supercharged with big 21" spinning rims; The 4 story semi-D on the hill at next to Bedok ITE opposite Chai Chee Industrial Park; Ibanez Joe Satriani JS1000 Chromeboy; Liverpool Football Club

5 people you would love to meet in heaven
Jesus, King David, Issac Newton, Eric Liddell & Stevie Ray Vaughn

Five things in my refrigerator:
Meiji Low Fat Milk, Ribena cheerpacks, Nescafe Mocha Ice Coffee, Subway Honey Mustard, Lots of cheese.

Five things in my closet:
Adidas shorts, Liverpool Jerseys, Giordano lycra t shirts, Xara shirts, 3/4 pants & Berms, Luminous boxers

Five things in my messenger bag/backpack/briefcase:
My padlock & locker key, My iPod, Pen/Pencil, Namecard holder with a whole bunch of namecards, PDA

Five things on my bookcase:
My Kenwood Hifi, Musclemag & Flex magazines, Nutrition textbooks, Aromatherapy burner, Alarm Clock

5 people I will tag:
Stefan, Gordon, Errol, Adele (My niece), Vanessa Frida (Because she started all this tagging (",) )

what kind of first impression do you think people say when they first see you?
- Wah lau… so action packed ah? & why does he talk so fast… and talk so much…?

what’s one thing you like to do alone?
- I like to shit alone… dont you?

what song are you to listening right now?
- Still Loving You (Scorpions)

what kind of books do you like to read?
- Autobiographies & periodicals… comic books too.

do you have a problem changing clothes in front of your friends?
- No man… what you see is what you get

what do you eat when you raid the fridge at night?
- anything that doesnt require much cooking or heating up… yogurt, ice cream, cheesecake

describe your bed?
- Bluish, big enuf for 1 person with a bedside table with lots of clocks & books on 1 side & a shelf with lots of aromatherapy candles on the other.

spontaneous or planned?
- i like a bit of both..

do you know how to play poker?
- yes. strip, chips & casino

what do you carry with you at all times?
- handphone, my specs, iPod, my chip on the shoulders

what do you miss most about being a kid?
- no bills, no responsibilities & more given opportunities

are you happy with your given name?
- yes & no because i dont have a chinese name

what color is your bedroom?
- pale shade of blue & beige

have you ever been in a play?
- yes, a few.

do you like yourself and believe in yourself?
- im not the finished article yet but i strive to believe in myself that everything is possible

do you consider yourself to be a nice person?
- of course… very nice

who do you like to meet most?
- charlize theron… wooo!!!!

what is your ideal wedding location?
- one of the beaches in Bintan

whats one instrument you wish you could play?
- Violin

whats one language you want to learn?
- Spanish

what’s one trait you hate in a person?
- indifference

do you consider yourself materialistic?
- no man. im pretty comfortable with just the bare neccessities

National Day is arriving, and Mr Brown has started off a series of podcasts for the occasion. The podcasts are kindof heartwrenching & somehow brought out the patriotism in me which usually never shows. Im not blessed with sponsored podcasting recording equipment from LSV Enterprise like mrbrown is, but im still inspired to do one so here is my take on a make do I AM SINGAPOREAN written blog entry as my personal tribute to my identity/nationality. Although not as flowing & inspirationally stylo, its something close to my heart. Im hoping to see more people do this as its quite interesting to find out what makes us all tick.

I am a chinese but i got no chinese name.

I got a baptism middle name that means the rock but no im not eurasian or angmoh.

I try to speak many languages; but mainly Singlish & English are the ones im comfortable in. Please dont call me banana just because i speak more english than mungen. You ever kena 4 D7s for your chinese? Chinese, Malay, hokkien, teochew, cantonese & bits of french & spanish are just peripherals i try to articulate. I also dont need to wear green to swear.

My surname is pretty vulgar sounding & many have a field day coming up with the endless list of possibilities of nicknames.

I was born in Singapore to a singaporean & a malaysian & i feel more mixed up than ever about my race & ethnicity. My parents, my family & I are not on very good terms but we try to live harmoniously.

I have many relatives but we are not closely related; only by association. One of the reasons i want to get married is so that i can have real relatives.

I am part of the last generation of kids that lived in a world without pagers and mobile phone. I still have that yellow Css bus no. 8 ticket with the hole in the center. Want to see my sec school bus pass?

I learnt to brush my teeth properly squatting next to a drain in primary school. i was often sent to the Principal’s office for not bringing my dam toothbrush.

I was a lazy student who preferred to play than to study. Maths was a total turnoff. Now im beginning to regret not being good at counting. I used words like "pass up my homework" & "borrow me your pen". But i still scored a A1 for my english. Sitting in the front of the class was the "smartest" thing to do because my teachers usually stood in the center of the class which meant all us front rowers could have a nap each time she goes on some sob story about us not bringing our books for silent reading.

I am christian, i love my Savior even though i dont profess it often enough or show it through my actions.

I believe in God, Jesus Christ & the Holy Spirit who died for the redemption of the sins of mankind. I try to be a good boy; no im not making excuses for myself but after all this while i still am struggling with many issues. God is still good all the time & i have many things to be thankful for.

I don’t slog in a 9-5 job pushing papers. I train people to live a more wholesome & healthier life through exercise & watching their diet.

I am a personal trainer… i repeat, im a personal trainer; not a personal torturer.

I love my job & want to train many clients a day even though i dont have that many now.

I hope to own a car soon so that i can drive to my clients who are based outside my gym. Good excuse to have a set of wheels for a business investment. My friends think that i should dress better especially at work even though i think i have an okay fashion sense based on comfortability. Whenever i can, i buy my supplements and medicine from other countries because they cost 1/2 the price compared to pharmacies here & the potency is higher. No herbalife bullshit for me.

I wonder how many people in my generation will live in a life of debt. Im still struggling to clear my bills alongside managing my fitness business.

I strongly believe that working at MacDonald’s or clearing up clogged toilet bowls are NOT the jobs for 70year old "retirees".

I live in an artificial environment; we are told to smile during September 2006

I have been trying to get as big, thick & massive as possible even though all my friends im big enough. But im not abang gym. I hate to do cardio… It’s the fastest way for me to lose my mass.

I am a heartlander even though i dream of living in a big semi-d with my superturbocharged mod-up car with big rims & twin exhaust.

I spent the prime of my life giving 2 years of the twilight to the government to serve my country in the army.

I am a good soldier & learnt alot in the army even though i downgraded & chow kenged my way through.

I love my fellow countrymen even though they piss the hell out of me with their selfish impatient & inconsiderate ways. Cant they read the sign that says keep left on the escalator?

I believe i got the right to a singaporean or malaysian "stupid" because of the blood lines of my family. What’s love got to do with it?

I believe that there should be more opposition in the parliament to balance the power.

I was one of the 33.3% who voted for the Workers Party in my home. One of the reasons why i dont want to move is because i could stick one to the "bloody gahmen". So much for giving me so little for the progress package. I cant wait to vote for my constituency again.

I firmly believe that the MDA TV/Radio licence is BULLSHIT, along with many other policies. I’m now in the process of informing all the various departments of things I don’t have and laws that I’m not breaking.

I love Singapore, but I detest the ugly Singaporean who is drunk with wealth and power. Fat or thin, rich or poor, everyone should act with dignity, treat each other with respect and give others a fair chance - not target people for expressing different or opposing views. But Singapore is an economic powerhouse, not a humanitarian one. We’ve forgotten that we are people, not products off a conveyor belt.

I love her even though i know i may never ever win her heart. It sucks when affairs of the heart dont turn out the way you would have them.

Take it from me, the women from my past know how big the schlong is, but even though my manhood is big, it still stinks when its how fat your wallet is & how handsome you look that is most important to a woman.

I trained my blood & guts out for the OSIM Triathlon, but i never managed to get to do the relay.

I blog to recognise my feelings and thoughts which I always buried in my heart.

I write this on my blog instead of podcasting is because I dun know how to podcast and I do not have some patriotic music behind me. Believe me, it’s a pretty exhaustive list so sue me if you think im cheong hei.

I want to do this on a podcast once i get a microphone & come up with a good song to be in the background.

I am almost turning 30 even though i feel like im 45 & think like im 18.

I am Jason Peter Nah, i am the Big Machine; i think im living in the wrong country & I am singaporean…

So say we all!